Ascension & recovering from adoption trauma

this series, I’ll attempt to explain ascension, adoption trauma, DNA and how the three are not only inherently connected but to justify how adoption is a foreign concept devoid of humanity and how trauma is passed from generation to generation via DNA.

I know this won’t be for all of you, and that’s okay, but for those who are open, I believe that this will help in some way by understanding something that is bigger than self.

In the adoption experience, there are cycles within cycles, anyone can be caught up in these cycles throughout their lives and the majority don’t see a way out, doomed to repeat cycles for the rest of their earthbound lives, even while being oblivious to what’s actually going on within them and in the “BIG picture”. Adoptees have an additional conscious layer to acknowledge and process in order to attain enlightenment. Most adoptees know this as “Coming out of the fog”. Once out of the fog the cycles continue.

It’s not all bad there is a way out, there is a way to heal by understanding Healing Hybridisation TraumaOur intention in this treatment is to command our divine right to reclaim our mind, reclaim our mental cohesion, reclaim our mental health and wellbeing to be restored to balance and restored to integrated thoughts and behaviours. Our thought-forms are the behaviours we have, and to observe one’s thoughts will precede the actions taken through outward behaviours. At this time it is important to be aware of all of our thoughts and what we allow to shape our belief system that informs and influence our behaviours.

Table of Contents

Chapter 1

  1. Ascension, also known as;
  2. The Law of One
  3. World Humanism
  4. Service to Others
  5. Human Rights

Chapter 2

  1. Trauma
  2. The Primal Wound
  3. Adoption Trauma

Chapter 3

  1. Narcissism
  2. Princess Code
  3. Black Madonna Network

Chapter 4

  1. Religious Violence
  2. Bifurcation
  3. Point of Divergence

Chapter 5

  1. Dark Night of the Soul
  2. False Parent
  3. The connection between Mother and child

Chapter 6

  1. DNA
  2. Social media
  3. Healing False Parent Patterns

Chapter 7

1.Healing

Chapter 1

Our planet and the human race has suffered hybridisation trauma in various forms. This hybridisation trauma could be interpreted as adoption or surrogacy, manifesting in genetic damage both physically and spiritual-energetically — which makes human beings brain and mental bodies vulnerable and weak to mind control, memory wiping, and removing and destroying the correct historical record of our personal heritage. Controllers desperately want us to forget that we have Souls through the use of the Anti-Soul Agenda. Without understanding the worldwide agenda of trauma based mind control, we cannot understand our participation in the constructs put in place to keep it going. We become unknowing participants, in perpetuating these systems.

1. Ascension, also known as;

Spiritual Awakening is a simultaneous increase of Expanding Consciousness that occurs when our spiritual-energetic bodies connect into our physical bodies.

Generally the catalyst for spiritual Awakening is discovered through the process of progressive Kundalini activation that starts in the base of our spineand moves the intelligent energies up the spine and into the Crown.

As a human being undergoes the Awakening process, which can progress gradually over many years, that person shifts into perceptions of higher consciousness, which can include increased awareness of energy in the environment, perceiving multidimensional realities, sensing extra dimensional entities and feeling a direct communion with the interconnected energy that exists between all things.

2. The Law of One

The Law of One is the comprehension that all things are made of intelligent energy and are a part of the All-One. The Law of One is a Sacred Science of the mechanics of Unity Consciousness and are the Natural Laws governing our Universal Creation. All-One is the recognition that Eternal Truth is Eternal Love and Eternal Love is the organic consciousness.

Law of One Practices

  1. Practice One — Unity Consciousness
  2. Practice Two — Love Yourself
  3. Practice Three- Love Others
  4. Practice Four — Love Earth and Nature
  5. Practice Five — Service to Others
  6. Practice Six -Consciousness Expansion
  7. Practice Seven — Responsible Co-creation
  8. Narcissism
  9. Black Madonna Network

3. World Humanism

In the interpretation of the Law of One in Spiritual Ascension context, it is a egalitarian philosophy for evolving humanity towards humanitarian goals. Ascension study is made as an evolutionary model for our planet and humanity. The main focus is upon the inner spiritual study and reflection made upon the personal commitment to expand one’s consciousness and benevolence towards life. As we expand our consciousness we shift perspective to feel our interconnection with all Life and become orientated to be of service (Service to Others) thus, reflecting inner truth. When we experience this all encompassing spiritual-energetic connection, we inherently desire to practice human kindness and seek to collaborate with developing higher structures that place value on human beings, a value system of a World Humanism.

4. Service to Others

Service to Others consciousness is intrinsically integrated with the Cosmic Sovereign Law, or the Law of One and is the fifth practice of the Law.

The Right Relationship towards Others as Self — When we find ourselves uncomfortable with the actions of others, we can relieve ourselves by remembering to cultivate the right attitude towards self. The Law of One is the Universal Truth that All Is One. Thus, one who practices this understanding of the Law of One acts and makes decisions based upon his or her awareness that every action has a consequence to the self and to others. Furthermore, one who exemplifies the Law of One understands that when one person suffers, all people suffer (whether they realise it or not).

5. Human Rights

Human rights are moral principles that describe certain standards of human behavior, and are regularly protected as legal rights in municipal and international law. They are commonly understood as inalienable fundamental rights “to which a person is inherently entitled simply because she or he is a human being,” and which are “inherent in all human beings” regardless of their nation, location, language, religion, ethnic origin or any other status. They are applicable everywhere and at every time in the sense of being universal, and they are egalitarian in the sense of being the same for everyone. They require empathy and the rule of law and impose an obligation on persons to respect the human rights of others. They should not be taken away except as a result of due process based on specific circumstances; for example, human rights may include freedom from enslavement, genocide, unlawful imprisonment, torture, and execution and Babies forcibly being separated from their mothers at birth.

Chapter 2

1. Trauma

Traumas are deep energetic wounds that if they are left unresolved and unhealed in a person, within the layers of our bodies, they create a pathway for various energy Parasites and Attachments, that form many energetic tributaries that feed the same wound of internal Trauma. In higher vision, it can appear something like an black energy octopus in the person ‘s energy field, it can be sensed as formed from a core trauma event within it, with several lines of dark energy moving in the body to be triggered in various ways inside that person, used like marionette lines of a puppet to be activated from certain emotional or mental triggers. When those deep Trauma wounds are in the person, and there are cords connected to them, many times they connect to Mind Control programs that are specific 3D belief systems.

What can happen is that the Trauma wound attracts an extradimensional entity or Negative Disincarnate that is vibrating at a particular level at whatever that Trauma wound is. So say there is a traumatic psycho-spiritual event, where someone was a child victim of abuse, or at some point in their life the person underwent some experience of abuse. So if that abuse energy is not forgiven, cleared and moved through the body; that person probably splintered off and dissociated from that trauma timeline, and a cording or Astral Binding was now created that connects into that timeline of the event.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen someone as a child that has gone through an abuse and their emotional and spiritual development is stunted, the aging process stops at that time of trauma, even as their biological body ages, their emotional and spiritual body just gets stopped or frozen in time. Every adoptee first experiences this in the form of the “Primal Wound”.

2. The Primal Wound

There is a “primal wound” that develops when a mother and child are separated by adoption shortly after childbirth. It describes the mother and child as having a vital connected relationship which is physical, psychological and physiological, and examines the effects of disrupting such bonds.

Although difficult to read because of the emotion it evokes in all members of the adoption triad, it nevertheless rings true and can be a great help in acknowledging, understanding, and validating the wounds created by the trauma of separation between mother and child.

3. Adoption trauma

The Primordial Imprints of Separation, the first level is shock, trauma and devastation; the second level is the lack of trust, lack of trust in spirit of course; number three is the betrayal and its polarity, abandonment, the two work together the betrayal and abandonment come in together so it’s listed as one. The next one is fear, the next one is cosmic rage of cosmic anger, the next one unworthiness, the next one is shame and guilt, apparently that’s the same vibration and the next one is feeling entrapped, so entrapment.

  1. Shock, Trauma and Devastation
  2. Lack of trust, Lack of trust in Spirit
  3. Betrayal and Abandonment
  4. Fear
  5. Cosmic Rage of Cosmic Anger
  6. Unworthiness
  7. Shame and Guilt
  8. Entrapment

When one has control over the thoughts of one’s mind, one has control over the direction and actions of the physical body, all of its parts and reclaiming of the soul energies. Whoever controls the Mind controls the Soul.

Mind Control is used to form socially acceptable belief systems and shape value systems to which are used to control the masses to enslave themselves on planet earth. God, Religious Violence, gender issues, financial and debt enslavement, Consumptive Modeling, and Misogyny are the most mind controlled and manipulated.

The Nuremberg code was established in 1949, for the purpose of developing standards by which to judge the Nazi scientists and doctors during the Nuremberg trials. The Nuremberg Code states that all who are participating in such an experiment are required to give voluntary consent that is free of coercion, fraud, duress or deceit.

Informed consent is an extremely important marker for guiding the ethical principles necessary to the creation of a humanitarian based society, and is relevant in all segments of society impacting human rights, sexual ethics, business ethics, bio-tech ethics and political ethics. It is the primary ethical principle and philosophy to prevent rampant corruption that harbours abusive conduct that allows lies, deceit, intimidation and partial disclosure of the facts that innately steal away the consent of the people.

In the case of the adoptee and birth mother.

The birth mother is controlled and coerced by doctors and people of “faith and religion” to give up her baby while after birth the baby is controlled using completely other set of controls via Social Engineering dictated by adoptive families and society in general.

Chapter 3

There is a huge connection between these deep Trauma wounds that remain unhealed and over time the wounds are exaggerated and magnified in their painful effects by 1000, through the entities that the person is now carrying. The more emotional charge that is around the Trauma is the number one issue that leads to addiction problems. So if there are deep wounds, not only emotionally, but also around the Instinctual Mind that has to do with addiction, this wounding is very difficult on the emotional and etheric body of that human being.

In order to heal from past Trauma, we will have to face the memory or event that had traumatized us at the point in time of the actual event or has been recorded as tremendous pain within the body, Brain and Soul. In order to spiritually heal the body and mind from trauma-based events or mind control, pushing through triggers is important in the spiritual integration and personality integration process.

  • Remember what happened that generated trauma or pain
  • Give expression, give voice to what has happened, having a witness that is capable to hold a safe and nonjudgmental space is important (if possible).
  • Allow yourself to feel the feelings, and allow the process of feeling the repressed or unresolved emotions of what had happened at the time of the trauma or unresolved pain. Memories must be given the time and space to be emotionally processed into completion.
  • Intentionally sever the attachment, cords and bonds to that painful emotion, or the people or circumstance involved. If needed evict any negative entities or demonics that were syphoning energy from this cord.(See Spiritual Deliverance).
  • Intend to reclaim all aspects of yourself that had been fragmented from pain or trauma, this is RRO or Return to Rightful Owner.
  • Close the harmful portal to the past time where the trauma has occurred or close down any multidimensional harmful portals that have left damage in the Aura.

NOTE: This is not a step by step guide to healing, but simply a journey to understanding by processing our plight as adoptees.

Make sure to take your time:

click through the underlined links and educate yourself.

Without understanding the worldwide agenda of trauma based mind control, we cannot understand our participation in the constructs put in place to keep it going. We become unknowing participants, in perpetuating these systems.

Mind Control is used to form socially acceptable belief systems and shape anti-human value systems in the Death Culture, which direct thoughts that are in contradiction to each other, like war and killing for peace.

Manipulators tend to use Gaslighting techniques and like to take any statement that has been said and turn it around or twist its meaning in order to use it against you. Usually manipulators are good with using Doublespeakto add confusion to the conversation that will be mixed with ambiguous language that when it all adds up, does not make any logical sense.

1. Narcissism

Trauma precedes narcissism in some form or another. The trick is not to fall for the trick your ego tries to pull on you.

Narcissistic personality disorder — one of several types of personality disorders — is a mental condition in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for excessive attention and admiration, troubled relationships, and a lack of empathy for others. But behind this mask of extreme confidence lies a fragile self-esteem that’s vulnerable to the slightest criticism.

A narcissistic personality disorder causes problems in many areas of life, such as relationships, work, school or financial affairs. People with narcissistic personality disorder may be generally unhappy and disappointed when they’re not given the special favours or admiration they believe they deserve. They may find their relationships unfulfilling, and others may not enjoy being around them.

Vulnerable Narcissists (VN’s)

These people are generally very sensitive and tend to be quiet or shy by nature. Yet to disguise their chronic feelings of self-hatred and unworthiness, VN’s overcompensate by putting on a grandiose mask, seeking to merge their identities with other idealized people. VN’s have an unshakeable need to feel special about themselves and have little genuine regard for the feelings of others. VN’s are primarily motivated by fear of rejection and abandonment, thus don’t have the capacity to authentically love and care for others. Additionally, VN’s use emotional manipulation (such as shaming, guilt-tripping and gaslighting) to secure sympathy and attention from others. Their lives are fuelled by inferiority complexes which often stem from childhood mistreatment.

Invulnerable Narcissists (IN’s)

These people reflect the traditional image of the narcissist: that of a highly self-confident person, cold and unempathetic person. IN’s, unlike VN’s, are thick-skinned and shamelessly seek for power, glory, recognition and pleasure. IN’s often suffer from god complexes, believing themselves to be far superior to everyone else — and they have a pathological need to make that known.

Both types share similar traits such as using others to fuel their narcissistic delusions, blaming and criticizing, lack of empathy, unfaithfulness and the need for power.

Studies show when psychological reactions of childless couples applying to an adoption agency are examined. Infertility can be a developmental life crisis and may be experienced as a narcissistic trauma, resolution of which depends upon individual character structure. Therefore in some cases trauma can develop into full blown narcissism.

The general public’s presupposition of infertility has been influenced by Religions, governments and their archaic views. These views shape the social norm and psychology into one of fear, shame and desperation.

The influences of unconscious attitudes and conflicts on the abilities of the adoptive mother to be motherly toward their adopted children. It is believed that an adoptive mothers failure to develop motherliness which is a major cause of later disturbances in the adopted child. They (the mothers) view the adopted child as narcissistic injury, as evidence that they themselves are damaged.

2. Princess Code

The Princess Code is a collective planetary archetype that has been imposed on human consciousness to purposely distort the female principle and female gender roles. As a result this archetype can also be referred to as stemming from the “dark female” or “dark mother” Baphomet forces that are manipulated by the Satanic and Luciferian spirits (Imposter Spirit) in their ritual alchemy to impose their timelines and future probabilities upon the current earth consciousness. The timelines used to feed this false female archetype are related to the painful histories of Tiamat. This is a False Female consciousness program designed to inflict pain and suffering upon the earth. When the NAA invaded the planet during the Atlantian cycle, the consciousness program installed in the Planetary Logos was designed to enslave the inhabitants of the planet based in Orion Patriarchal Domination through a strategy of shaping mind control through Archontic Deception Behaviour.

The Princess Code Narcisstic Profile

1. Astral fantasy that the Knight in Shining Armor will save her from doom, poverty, low status and unhappiness.

2. Superior beliefs that she is a “Princess” and then “Queen” thus she makes demands of self-entitled treatment.

3. Beliefs she has to manipulate the male target of her “Knight Fantasy” in order to marry her and become the “King”. Sexual manipulation is common.

4. Generally feels that she is deserving of wealth, jewels or status symbols and will blame or use others to get these material goods.

5. General disregard for others, even those she is close with, in the relentless pursuit of her fantasies and personal goals.

6. Cosmetic surgery or extreme manipulation methods to make her appear to be a “princess” to others.

7. Spin doctors the reality (creates self-promotion stories) to suit her image of perfection, or image based on her reality bubble which is based in delusion.

8. Narcissism through emotional fracturing is masking her outward superiority complex and potentially, tantrums, hysterics and upheavals.

9. Refuses to listen to facts and may lash out when her delusion or reality bubble is being threatened.

10. Key themes: manipulator, seducer, jezebel, Femme FataleVictim-Victimizer, lasher/slasher, guilt trip punisher, man-eater, strings attached, conditional

3. Black Madonna Network

The Black Madonna Network are levels of collective energetic architecture that is used to promote cultural belief systems of misogyny and related harmful feminine archetypes, directly and non-directly, such as the undercurrent of religious dogma that direct spiritually abusive and harmful beliefs of female subservience, discrimination and suffering. This is specifically the thought forms of hatred, control and suppression directed towards all female archetypes, thus perpetrate Misogyny towards the women and feminine principle on the planet earth. Thus, this is the architecture used for Mind Control to influence domination over the female principle and control and promote abuse of women for a variety of purposes.

If you don’t believe me, just look at the current state of the American political system, it’s being dictated by the misogynistic terminally toxic Republican Party which has already separated countless families.

Also reference the current Catholic Church crisis and coverup of world wide culture of sexual assault on children by clergy.

Not to mention the injustice of separation of child from mother at birth. These schisms are highly dysfunctional to the point they create genetic damage in the 2nd and 4th chakra layer functioning of the Lightbody.

These archetypes are used to negatively Mind Control people into separation and slavery, the population digresses into aggressive anti-human, robotic and disconnected behaviours.

The main goal of the Victim-Victimiser mind control system is based on intentionally programming humanity to think thoughts of violence and hatred to believe the Archontic Deception Behaviours and their AD Strategies/behaviours as a fear based control human belief system.

As humans feed their power into these systems and hierarchies based upon violence, lies and deception, the deception is covered up and its fabricated reality, becoming an anti-human value system.

AD Behavior Markers

  • Disassociation and Narcissism
  • Mental Rigidity
  • Emotional Fracturing
  • Carelessness
  • Deceitfullness
  • Dependence
  • False Reality Delusions
  • Divided Competition

It is important to be aware to identify these behavioural markers when we are exposed to them in so that we can remain informed about how we choose to interact and protect ourselves. These AD behavioural markers are used to hijack and usurp people and organisations that may start out with good humanitarian intentions.

Chapter 4

As I’ve already said in chapter 1 —3, this won’t be for everyone, but for those who are open, I believe that this will help in some way by understanding something that is bigger than self.

The next 3 subchapters lay the basis of how a soul is fragmented, almost split in two as a result of separation from our birth mother.

Our mental anxieties and emotional imbalances should be referred to as soul fragmentation” the root cause is persistent negative mental thoughts created by an untrained and undisciplined mind. Mental Miasma such as thought or beliefs and obsessions that can be cleared through ancestral healing.

Soul Fragmentation

The more soul fragmented and damaged a person’s energetic body is operating (or not operating at all) the more distorted the thoughts and behaviours become.

These deviations are manifested as Addictions, perversions and a wide array of damaging personality disorders or Alternate Identities that can be well observed in the individual as destructive to the self and destructive to others.

Additionally, when a living thing is tormented into feeling extreme pain or suffering, the mind and Soul can fracture into pieces, keeping those pieces trapped in phantom pockets that are controlled by that negative entity. This can happen at multiple dimensions of existence and stations of identity that are connected with the consciousness of that spiritual-energetic being. The more fragmented the being, the more disconnected and less evolved the consciousness becomes, until it sinks into the most primitive layers of existence.

1. Religious Violence

One of the largest lies promoted to divide our race is the War over Gods promoted through Religious Violence. May we consider the source, origin and basis of Religious Violence and how violence and hate filled literature has impacted our culture, society and belief systems that transcend any and all Religion.

The relationship of Christianity and violence is the subject of controversy because one view is that Christianity should advocate peace, love and compassion while it is also viewed and proven as a violent religion. Peace, compassion and forgiveness of wrongs done by others are key elements of Christian teaching. However throughout history, certain teachings from the Old Testament, the New Testament and Christian theology have been used to justify the use of force against heretics, sinners and external enemies.

A broader definition of violence that extends the meaning of the word to cover up “harm or damage” that has been perpetrated, not just physical violence per se. Thus, under this definition, Christian violence includes “forms of systemic violence such as poverty, racism, sexism” and of course adoption.

Consciousness Wiping is effective at creating programmable alters or Alternate Identities in other dimensions. These Alternates and Sub Personalities to take Control over the Body: In severe cases of mental splitting when the extreme pain drives that person into disassociation, at the moment the person disassociates from their body, the soul-psyche manifest coping mechanisms to survive. To disassociate from the painful trauma felt in the body, the soul and mind will split into sub personalities, or create alternate identities.

Through Religious Violence we are no longer free to create and evolve as per the original Blueprint of our intended creation, and we had no memory of what had happened to us. We were recycled through continual reincarnation into the Astral Plane with no memory of the past lives, who we really are, where we are going, or what our real relationship is to God and what humanities “purpose” actually is.

2. Bifurcation

Bifurcation means the splitting of a main body into two parts. In the mathematical study of change that occurs within a structure or space, bifurcation occurs when a parameter change causes the stability of an equilibrium (or fixed point in a field) to change. The comprehension of the mathematical change that is currently shifting the geometric value of frequency, which further, generates a bifurcation in the structure of time and space, is very relevant to us now. This is directly related to the forthcoming split occurring between timelines which govern our continued consciousness (energy) expression on the earth plane as it is moving into future time.

An additional co-dimensional bifurcation is forced on to the adoptee soon after conception.

As a soul passes from life to life through through the In-between space into the Hara centre of the mother, their consciousnesses unite as one. Then soon after conception the baby becomes an individual consciousness again around 3 months. . .

The mother and Childs soul are one for at least 1–3 months after birth. This is why adoptees are so traumatised after being separatedimmediately after birth.

The bifurcation of the soul at separation causes massive on going spiritual and developmental issues which breaks the Force of Love that naturally aligns itself back into unity with the Zero Point Field, the unified heart of the Universe.

The absence of love, or hatred, is a disintegrating, separative and weakening force, which absorbs light and energy away from the central point of Oneness. The more absence of love, the more absence of living light, and as a result, darkness is manifested through the process of fragmentation into successive layers of density.

As soon the mother realises she has no support and is forced to give up her baby she and her baby simultaneously develop trauma at a cellular and spiritual level.

3. Point of Divergence

The lower the quality of overall energy, the more unstable and disconnected the personal and environmental experience on earth will become. The higher the quality of overall energy, the more stable and connected the personal and environmental experience on earth will become.

The point of Divergence sets off Primordial Imprints of Separation, the first level is shock, trauma and devastation; the second level is the lack of trust, lack of trust in spirit of course; number three is the betrayal and its polarity, abandonment, the two work together the betrayal and abandonment come in together so it’s listed as one. The next one is fear, the next one is cosmic rage of cosmic anger, the next one unworthiness, the next one is shame and guilt, apparently that’s the same vibration and the next one is feeling entrapped, so entrapment.

  1. Shock, Trauma and Devastation
  2. Lack of trust, Lack of trust in Spirit
  3. Betrayal and Abandonment
  4. Fear
  5. Cosmic Rage of Cosmic Anger
  6. Unworthiness
  7. Shame and Guilt
  8. Entrapment

The planetary collective energy field has many, many layers of intersection links which are building more access points into diagonal lines moving throughout inter-dimensional fields. These links make it possible to directly intersect into many different reality timelines, traveling in the past, present and future.That pressure of force being applied in the planetary energy field is resulting in accumulative intensity and extreme polarity amplification. When the extreme polarity of combined forces that exist together within a collective energy field reaches its apex, a split occurs. Any unnecessary forced separation results in trauma.

So in referencing Soul Fragmentation I believe adoptees suffer a horrific partial splitting of their soul at the time of separation from their mother before their consciousness has time to stabilise and diverge in a natural healthy way leaving the baby and its consciousness open to abuse, manipulation by people who require to project their own losses, needs and negative behaviours in a desperate attempt to feel whole in themselves.

Chapter 5

If we do not clear the past issues recorded in our timeline we will repeat the same patterns until we learn the spiritual lesson or clear the trauma of the original causal event. Everything repeats itself in the person’s timeline until the spirit of the person resolves the energetic conflict issue or trauma that is recorded in their consciousness memories.

This allows the creation of a new timeline and future direction to travel for the consciousness. When we clear the past, we move outside of the trauma timeline and this changes the person’s timeline for the future, that further changes the probability of the future cycle of time.

Our planet and the human race has suffered hybridisation trauma in various forms. This hybridisation trauma could be interpreted as adoption or surrogacy, manifesting in genetic damage both physically and spiritual-energetically — which makes human beings brain and mental bodies vulnerable and weak to mind control, memory wiping, and removing and destroying the correct historical record of our personal heritage. Controllersdesperately want us to forget that we have Souls through the use of the Anti-Soul Agenda. Without understanding the worldwide agenda of trauma based mind control, we cannot understand our participation in the constructs put in place to keep it going. We become unknowing participants, in perpetuating these systems.

1. Dark Night of the Soul

There are four main types of the down-cycle of spiritual crisis which could variously be associated with what the ancients and mystics have called the Dark Night of the Soul. These phases of spiritual development are unavoidable, as the “living death” or Ego Death must occur for resurrection of the spiritual body and mind.

The four main types of spiritual crisis down-cycle are:

  1. LIGHTNING
  2. SHOCK
  3. SELF-DIGESTION
  4. BURNOUT

The deeper one goes into a die-off stage to drop density, to resolve issues, the greater the spiritual resurrection. Similarly the more one allows the influx of kundalini spirit phases during the heart and Consciousness expansion, the deeper one goes into the die-off stages. The die-off is either acute or chronic depending on the person and the phase of awakening.

No person on this earth is exempt from exposure to the massive fields of chaos, confusion and darkness that exist in the collective mind of humanity. In every area of our life, when we generate belief systems, thoughts, behaviours, emotions and actions, this accumulates into energetic content that combines with the vibrationally matched consciousness fields that are in the environment.

This is why adoptees and other adoption triad members find it extremely hard to face their trauma and work though the real issues at hand. Most are rooted in their image of perfection, or image based on their reality bubble which is based in delusion see the Princess Code. Refusing to listen to facts and they may lash out when her delusion or reality bubble is being threatened.

So when attachments form, we do not govern our own energies appropriately, but it also happens when we don’t have awareness about our true self-identity, and we do not know ourselves at a core level. We still may carry thought forms and belief systems that come from the expectations of our biological family of origin. When we are in our power and we accept and unconditionally love ourselves at that level, and we don’t allow our power to be drained by others, including our family of origin, as they may try and manipulate us into their expectations through emotional blackmail or Gaslighting techniques.

The Orphan Complex

Is a common mental disorder that many experience when they incarnate on the earth and do not realise their true origin and spiritual mission with the earth. Most Star people suffer from memory wipe to discourage them from discovering their true mission and spiritual purpose.

As a result, many of us suffer from an Orphan Complex, at various stages of our ancestral clearing and healing process. When we consciously participate and inquire on this process, we can make miraculous healing available not only to ourselves, but to our extended family of origin and throughout our bloodline history. For adoptees this is relevant and mirrors our life’s direction and recovery for connection to both biological and star families.

2. False Parent

The False Parent is the main Victimizer Archetype that is used by some families to create pain and trauma in the child either willingly or unwillingly, when that child is totally dependent upon that family or adult person.

When abuse is suffered in childhood, destructive Attachments and negative bonds are formed within that child that carry into adulthood, if they are not cleared.

To free the body, mind, emotions and spirit from the bondage of trauma induced by parents or others when we were children, we must take responsibility to learn how to love ourselves and unconditionally forgivewhat has happened to us. This action dissolves the Causality and the consequential effects, as well as later entanglements that this pain has created throughout the child’s timeline, all the way into adulthood.

Unhealed childhood trauma and pain is commonly carried over into our adult intimate relationships, infecting them with pain and leading into unhealthy and destructive relationships. When we are able to unconditionally forgive the situation and love ourselves, we learn that what happened to us as a child, had nothing to do with our real self. We shift our thinking to reflecting upon what lessons we have learned, and what strengths we can take away from that experience. We must shift our concept of the Parent that exists on the external, to become the Parent that exists in the internal self, and know that we are the true spiritual parent for ourselves.

Our self-worth is not relative to our abandonment by our biological family or how our adopted parents treated us as children.

2. The connection between Mother and child

First 1D Internal Layer

This is the root layer 1st Chakra of our Unconscious Mind and it functions like a hard drive for the ego. In this hard drive is the cellular memory storage from all of one’s lifestreams. This means that cellular memories from past lives, present lives and future lives may all be stored in this memory hard drive. These memories are not given value when they are recorded, whether one may perceive them as good or bad, these many multiple memories are stored on the root hard drive of every human being. Whether one was a fetus, baby, in between lifetimes, or unconscious when the body suffered “abuse”; it was recorded in one’s memory storage (pre-verbal) whether one currently remembers that event consciously or not.

Hara Centre

The Hara is the chi body, the etheric gateway enveloping the planet. In our physical body the Hara is more about the energetic or spiritual aspects (not so much the physical space), is about an inch in diameter, and located from the navel around two inches inwards closer to our spine than our navel. Surrounding the Hara is an envelope of energy called the ‘tan tien’ or Dantien, about the size of a soccer ball. This Dantien is filled from the Hara, and the chi energy interacts with all organs, particularly the intestines where our food is turned into energy. It is no mistake that the beginning of life (the foetus) grows and is nurtured within this etheric envelope.

As mentioned previously, a soul passes from life to life through through the In-between space into the Hara centre of the mother, their consciousnesses unite as one. Then soon after conception the baby becomes an individual consciousness again around 3 months. . .

The mother and Childs soul are one for at least 1–3 months after birth. This is why adoptees are so traumatised after being separatedimmediately after birth.

A blocked Hara can cause energetic blockages resulting in a lack of health and vitality, and can be the main cause of many addictions especially to food (the attempt to feel full).

Reclaiming Mother and Child Bond

As an adult, you are now the parent to your inner child. To reclaim the mother and child bond, hold this child in your arms, cherish and protect that precious child. Feel your role being that parent, radiating love and support to that inner child, bringing unconditional love, comfort, security and peace … and an end to all trauma and mistreatment. Feel this with your whole being, allowing the child to ‘let go’ and fully release into your loving arms.

Recovering Core Self

As a result of current shifts, all people are being pushed to recognise and feel the differences between the authentic core self and the false identities used to mask pain and trauma. Recovering the core self, learning to adjust ways of thinking, behaving and the negative ego coping mechanisms is all needed to help people develop into a higher version of ourselves. Our lowest three frequency bands (ego or false self) will cease to exist in the same way that they have on this planet. This produces a massive pressure upon the constructs that exist as the lower mental bodies, which for some people with unhealed trauma, will be felt as surges of electrical pressure on the nervous system that generates even more Mental Anxiety and physical tension. This pressurised sensation upon our body and mind can bring up feelings of fear as we progress into facing the unknown and overcoming fears of uncertainty and self-doubt.

False Self

The false self or the false identity is usually formed to generate inner walls in our Unconscious Mind as a result of unhealed painful Trauma and fears. This wall of separation that exists between our unconscious mind and Conscious Mind hides secret negative beliefs or internal fears that we have collected about ourselves as the result of how we perceived life experiences. For some people, these deeply buried fears and pain is so devastating that they avoid addressing it, as it can sink them into a dark abyss of emotional pain that they do not know how to cope with.

To hide from this emotional pain, they develop coping mechanisms to help them better survive in the 3D world of obligations and stress, while living in a culture that emphasises escapism, which is pain and fear avoidance. People in pain form opposite sets of compensating behaviours, which means they act out behaviours that are actually the opposite of who they really are, in so to keep up appearances or expectations connected to their belief system. These negative habits form into coping mechanisms that help them to deal with the anxiety they feel that is created from past unhealed pain and trauma.

These compensating behaviours turn into fear coping mechanisms in order to get through life, people putting up a façade or false identity that they believe other people will accept or love. Or they may be reduced into impersonating other people’s behaviours around them in order to feel safe, and other peoples behaviours become the mental body architecture that form into the false identity mask that they show to the world. When we allow others the power to dictate to our identity, we become lost, confused and very unhappy.

Reconciling Memories in Timelines

When we realise that the consequences of our actions today were the result of inauthentic decisions made in the past (when we were projecting a mask of deception), that moment of realisation can be painful. Every little event is connecting throughout the golden threads woven in the fabric of all time for us to see. Some of us may play out these timeline memories or events that were recorded in time, consciously or unconsciously.

At this time we are being required to reconcile ancestral memories recorded in timelines in some kind of format as it surfaces it will present us with a task or conflict to resolve. Many of us are reconciling the past or future timelines, as well as issues presented at the individual self, the ancestral self, the karmic self, or the collective planetary self and so forth.

We may have the “Come to Jesus” moment in our life and be forced to see the pain and harm we have caused (or our ancestors caused) to ourselves and others through histories recorded in time. We may have allowed another person or thing that we love to have authority in our life direction and influence our timeline and recently learned they have misrepresented themselves. No matter how this deception has occurred, if we have based our life on a foundation of self-deception (masking identities) that deception is crumbling away beneath our feet, and this can feel scary. When we lose what we may have believed is the foundation of our identity, the Ego/Personalitythe lack of reinforcement to that identity may contribute to feeling a loss of clarity or trust in life. Administering compassion and offering kind understanding to support those in this situation is greatly needed today, especially as adoptees.

Chapter 6

All human beings that are incarnated into this earth as babies being born have the Consciousness memories of their ancestors recorded in the cells of their body. In the cycles of seven years, the ancestral trauma of the past is brought through the offspring and repeated with each seven-year cycle throughout the human being’s lifetime, until the trauma pattern is resolved and cleared permanently.

A “Genetic Pathcutter” is an incarnated soul with a specific contract to work with various levels of clearing and releasing old cellular patterns held in the human DNA and, consequently, the planetary grids. Recovering adoptees are pathcutters of sorts, searching and longing for original records and family connection.

Adoptees are at an disadvantage right of the bat due to the extreme wounding of separation from not only our mothers but our entire heritage. Our cellular memory is confused while our spiritual memory of passed lives is all but wiped and as mentioned in chapter 4 our soul is fractured to the point where we feel like we are living 2 lives, one in another dimension.

On the path of Kundalini awakening or Spiritual Ascension the first stages for spiritual healing and ongoing will include emotional and mental body clearing of these accumulated Soul memories that are recorded from both the patriarchal and matriarchal lineages of the persons Family of Origin. When we are observing trauma events and behaviours from past Timelines that we carry from our Parents and Ancestors, we can choose to heal these patterns through unconditional love and forgiveness. The Ascension Cycle will take us through many stages of emotional clearing in order to heal these cellular memories in our body and remove the blockages and negative effects they create. As adoptees we have a huge job in front of us if we wish to move forward spiritually.

1. DNA

When we are born, the deoxyribonucleic acid/DNA in our bodies contains the blueprints for who we are and instructions for who we will become. Researchers have shown through studies that epigenetics entails even more than DNA and the places where we live, the climate around us and all the twists, turns and hard knocks of our lives. The field of epigenetics refers to the science that studies how the development, functioning and evolution of biological systems are influenced by forces operating outside the DNA sequence, including intracellular, environmental and energetic influences resulting in disease “dis-ease” — Cancers, Autoimmune diseases, even depression cam change our cellular DNA.

HeartMath & Heart Intelligence

HeartMath deems integral elements of the model for who we are and what we can be are the thoughts, feelings and intentions we have every day. After two decades of studies, HeartMath researchers say other factors such as the appreciation and love we have for someone or the anger and anxiety we feel also influence and can alter the outcomes of each individual’s DNA blueprint.

The influence or control individuals can have on their DNA — who and whathey are and will become — is further illuminated in HeartMath founder Doc Childre’s theory of heart intelligence. Childre postulates that “an energetic connection or coupling of information” occurs between the DNA in cells and higher dimensional structures — the higher self or spirit.

The heart, which generates a much stronger electromagnetic field than the brain’s, provides the energetic field that binds together the higher dimensional structures and the body’s many systems as well as its DNA.

Changing DNA Through Intention

Three different studies, done by different teams of scientists proved something really extraordinary. But when a new research connected these 3 discoveries, something shocking was realised, something hiding in plain sight.

The power of intentional thoughts and emotions goes beyond theory at the HeartMath Institute. In a study, researchers have tested this idea and proven its veracity.

Connection to our mothers Mitochondrial DNA

When we equate the gender principle inherent in our creation and that our Mother principle is returning energetic balance into the earth core through the magnetic field, the next step is the implication to repair the Mitochondrial DNA. Mitochondrial DNA is the DNA located in mitochondria, structures within cells that convert chemical energy from food into a form that cells can use, adenosine triphosphate (ATP). ATP measures the amount of light quotient held by the cell and tissues of the body and is directly related to the embodiment of spiritual consciousness (Soul Matrix and Monad), which is energy and critical for energy metabolism.

Separation from our mothers has a direct impact on our physical, mental and spiritual wellbeing and here is the proof:

Human emotion literally shapes the world around us. Not just our perception of the world, but reality itself.

Here are 3 experiments that validate this truth

Experiment 1.

In the first experiment, human DNA, isolated in a sealed container, was placed near a test subject. Scientists gave the donor emotional stimulus and fascinatingly enough, the emotions affected their DNA in the other room.

In the presence of negative emotions the DNA tightened. In the presence of positive emotions the coils of the DNA relaxed.

The scientists concluded that “Human emotion produces effects which defy conventional laws of physics.”

Experiment 2.

In the second, similar but unrelated experiment, different group of scientists extracted Leukocytes (white blood cells) from donors and placed into chambers so they could measure electrical changes.

In this experiment, the donor was placed in one room and subjected to “emotional stimulation” consisting of video clips, which generated different emotions in the donor.

The DNA was placed in a different room in the same building. Both the donor and his DNA were monitored and as the donor exhibited emotional peaks or valleys (measured by electrical responses), the DNA exhibited the IDENTICAL RESPONSES AT THE EXACT SAME TIME.

There was no lag time, no transmission time. The DNA peaks and valleys EXACTLY MATCHED the peaks and valleys of the donor in time.

The scientists wanted to see how far away they could separate the donor from his DNA and still get this effect. They stopped testing after they separated the DNA and the donor by 50 miles and STILL had the SAME result. No lag time; no transmission time.

The DNA and the donor had the same identical responses in time. The conclusion was that the donor and the DNA can communicate beyond space and time.

Experiment 3.

The third experiment proved something pretty shocking! Scientists observed the effect of DNA on our physical world.

Light photons, which make up the world around us, were observed inside a vacuum. Their natural locations were completely random.

Human DNA was then inserted into the vacuum. Shockingly the photons were no longer acting random. They precisely followed the geometry of the DNA.

Scientists who were studying this, described the photons behaving “surprisingly and counter-intuitively”. They went on to say that “We are forced to accept the possibility of some new field of energy!”

They concluded that human DNA literally shape the behavior of light photons that make up the world around us!

So when a new research was done, and all of these 3 scientific claims were connected together, scientists were shocked.

They came to a stunning realization that if our emotions affect our DNA and our DNA shapes the world around us, than our emotions physically change the world around us.

Science has already proven some pretty MINDBLOWING facts about The Universe we live in. All we have to do is connect the dots.

2. Social Media

The adoption triad has the adoptive family who doesn’t see the trauma imposed on the first mother and baby. Both are truly traumatised so much that the baby grows to hate the first mother through their obvious experience of the primal wound (initial maternal separation), and the subtle social moulding from the adoptive family who are also traumatised by infertility.

These traumatised people are so traumatised that their fragile narcissistic ego is craving for acknowledgement that they look to social media in hope to heal.

Social media groups are created and closely monitored by people, for people who don’t reflect their point of view. However if the echo chamber of social media does not reflect their views, their lack of acknowledgement knocks their ego into clouding their judgement and the groups creator blocks the so-called offender. In some cases people even target a particular group in an attempt to change the social construct and direction of a particular group encouraging collective narcissism.

As a result social media is full of one sided ill-effective content void of clear undiluted meaning for for the propose of healing.

3. Healing False Parent Patterns

At this time we have an opportunity to come into the greater realisation that our true Parent is our God Parent. As we find God deep within our heart centre, we will begin to understand how we can be free of this abusive False Parent and all the pain we suffered from it. As we take responsibility as the real Parent, we completely forgive our biological and adoptive parents (and our Ancestors) and learn to Parent our child. We are the Mother, The Father and the Child. We are all in One. We can access the inner God Parent, and ask them to Parent and love their Child, the physical body. To be a Parent, requires responsibility to the child. This is one way of understanding self-mastery. To be a firm but loving parent means that the child cannot be allowed to run amok with the body playing out all its whims and fancies. The child can hurt itself if it is not given proper parenting and loving discipline to learn emotional and spiritual growth.

During this time, spiritual reflection in order to forgive one’s Parents, forgive family issues and resolve other pain related to gender role confusion will be supported to complete these past patterns. Inner balance between the masculine and feminine energies requires that we be cleared of Mother/Father distortions. Sacred marriage with God is the layers of our own inner male and female in balance. As we resolve past pain with our false parent, we remove the karmic buttons that have been damaging or have destroyed our relationships and marriages in adulthood. We then can be freed to have relationships that are sourced in Love and not karmic pain. The spiritual resolution of this will bring many of us an ability to experience the first relationships based purely on Love, no karmic history, no gender distortion.

“The Answer?” It’s not here. It’s within you

Re False Parent — When we change the way we perceive our negative experiences, we are able to own our own emotional conflicts without blame, guilt or projection upon another person, by needing to make it their fault. The set up on earth is to disempower people into always thinking that their misery is someone else’s fault, so that they are always in a state of blaming something else outside of themselves. This creates powerlessness and cycles of victimisation that trap the person into compliance with the enslavement programs. Do not assume that you know anything about that person that can be judged for what you cannot see or really know, as you have not walked in their shoes. Many people on this earth live with a broken heart, experiencing a large amount of Isolation, misery and fear throughout their life. Chances are you had a parent or other people that acted these feelings out on you.

The False Parent is the confusion a child has with the belief system that our biological Mother or Father Parent should love, protect and nurture their offspring, but in actuality, none of these emotional needs are met by the Parental role. Additionally the desire to belong to a family, in order to feel connected, is not satisfied emotionally. Depending on the level of Parental dysfunction, love and emotional needs are ingrained to be abusive, painful or selfish, and that “belief system” carries throughout the life experiences. Without correction of this dysfunction, the digression of the pattern continues to define “love” with all interpersonal relationships of the child, leading into adulthood. As long as the pattern continues, the person will feel disconnected, love-less, have unsuccessful marriages, and will seek defence or coping mechanisms to fill the inner void.

I don’t pretend to have all the answers, but piece by piece I’ve started putting myself back together. Researching, studying, growing, I found my own path combining spirituality and personal understanding. This is my truth and my understanding and I know it won’t be for everyone.

Chapter 7

At this point, I’m unsure what to tell you, every individual person’s meaning of “healing” is different, if that’s what you even want to call it! Some may say that the trauma we have experienced as adoptees and triad members is too much to “heal” from. So in saying that, where do you even start?

know there is no set time frame, take it on at your own pace, however, remain consistent and dedicated with your practice and you will experience many improvements, such as in mental and emotional freedom.

The three major motivation problems to overcome in the Buddhist tradition are greed, anger and delusion. If these constitute much of your motivation then your perceptions, beliefs and actions can be twisted. This may be a helpful model to help with understanding ourselves better as well as the motivation of others around us.

Trauma wounds that remain unhealed and over time the wounds are exaggerated and magnified in their painful effects by 1000, through the entities that the person is now carrying. The more emotional charge that is around the Trauma is the number one issue that leads to addiction problems. So if there are deep wounds, not only emotionally, but also around theInstinctual Mind that has to do with addiction, this wounding is very difficult on the emotional and etheric body of that human being.

In order to heal from past Trauma, we will have to face the memory or event that had traumatised us at the point in time of the actual event or has been recorded as tremendous pain within the body, Brain and Soul. In order to spiritually heal the body and mind from trauma-based events, pushing through triggers is important in the spiritual integration and personality integration process.

Personal freedom is being freed of all constructs of physical, emotional, psychological and spiritual suffering, torment or limitation.. and healing starts with understanding.

Fully understanding your individual situation in regards to adoption is not an easy road by no means. We need to navigate our own and others motivations, perceptions, beliefs, and actions in order to proceed.

As the chaos generated from the planetary ascension accelerates, many people are and have been influenced by negative forces that they do not or did not comprehend. Some of these negative forces are sourcing from peoples own Unconscious Mind and Negative Ego which has reinforced a lifetime of negative habits and behaviours. When people feel unsafe and insecure in themselves they will easily resort to controlling and manipulating behaviours.

Controlling people will always assume that their needs, desires, wants and purposes are always more important than whatever yours may be.

Through emotional manipulation, a controlling person will prey upon other people’s empathy and compassion. This is a type of emotional vampire. Controlling behaviour runs the gamut in wounded personalities of people that have low self-esteem, fear based thoughts and when these fears are left unchecked, this need to control others may progress into narcissistic andPsychopathic behaviours. One important point to understand about controlling behaviour is that it will always lead to some form of psychological or emotional manipulation which promotes deception and lying.

Just sit and think how these types of behaviours are at play with in and around the adoption triad. Every persons individual situation and experiences are different and respond and behave and in alignment to them depending on the virtues and intestinal fortitude, their up bringing.

What are their motivations, perceptions and beliefs? Their actions determined our outcome, if greed, anger and delusion were part of their psyche, chances are you’ve been taken advantage of and trauma ensued.

Facing Trauma

As a baby, our defences are down and we rely on other peoples virtues to respect and uphold our boundaries and basic human rights. As adoptees our basic human rights have been hijacked and by a mis informed social conscious that has been influenced negatively by people in positions of power that are psychologically damaged.

Normally all human beings that are incarnated into this earth as babies being born have the Conscious memories of their ancestors recorded in the cells of their body. In the cycles of seven years, the ancestral trauma of the past is brought through the offspring and repeated with each seven year cycle throughout the human being’s lifetime, until the trauma pattern is resolved, cleared and healed permanently. Though, through adoption, our cellular memory (See Chapter 6 part 1), our inter dimensional consciousness has been wiped, inherited and personal trauma still remains even though we don’t recognise where it comes from.

These memories are passed through the future generations into the offspring which will hold these accumulated records of memories in their body. When these accumulated memories include trauma, dysfunction, addiction and abusive relationships, these memories store aberrant emotions and belief systems generated from that original and subsequent related trauma. The energetic result is a range of potential negative effects on the consciousness of the person if this trauma remains uncleared. Therefore not only do we have our own trauma from the primal wounding of separation, we also feel our birth mothers trauma.

Self-Responsibility as Child Abused Adults

All human beings are responsible for their thoughts, deeds, actions and behaviours, in all conditions of which they are exposed. All of these are direct choices that are made by each person in the moment that will have direct consequences that impact them.

Many adults on the earth today have experienced childhood trauma and childhood abuse that results in shutting down their heart and oppresses their emotional and spiritual growth. This is designed to impair and damage their emotional competency and self-esteem in life. As challenging as it may be to progress beyond this childhood pain, it is imperative that the adult take actions of Self-Responsibility in order to free themselves from the bondage of continuing to carry that pain.

When we change the way we perceive our negative experiences, we are able to own our own emotional conflicts without blame, guilt or projection upon another person, by needing to make it their fault. The set up on earth is to disempower people into always thinking that their misery is someone else’s fault, so that they are always in a state of blaming something else outside of themselves. This creates powerlessness and cycles of victimisation that trap the person into compliance with social enslavement programs.

Genetic Pathcutting

On the path of Kundalini awakening or Spiritual Ascension the first stages for spiritual healing and ongoing will include emotional and mental body clearing of these accumulated Soul memories that are recorded from both the patriarchal and matriarchal lineages of both Family of Origins while figuring out what connect we have other timelines where the true historical record was erased from our conscious mind memories.

Clearly, when the cellular memories in our body are ignited from the changing magnetic fields and stellar activations and we have no context for biological-spiritual Ascension that shifts our consciousness into other Timelines, this can be disorienting. When this does occur many people feel deeply confused and isolated.

When feeling emotionally upset, we can restore balance to our heart and aura, by lovingly holding our personal boundaries, without violating others boundaries, by expecting them to resolve our emotional conflicts. This requires that we are willing to be open to learn what the real issue of conflict or pain is, and why it is there. The source of pain will reveal itself in your unchecked behaviours, blaming others or in unconscious reactions. Most of the time what you think is causing your pain, by judging it from what you see on the surface, is not really what is causing the pain you are feeling. It is much deeper than that. By going deeper and reflecting on unconditional forgiveness of yourself and others and allowing the time required to heal, helps to neutralise the inner conflict.

As adoptees we owe it to ourselves our to clear our Ancestral Trauma and realign without true heritage. We have been especially targeted with superimposed karmic loads, for the purpose of slowing us down and we requiring incredible spiritual strength in order to be positive and be in alignment with the Law of Cause and Effect.

Healing

When we have been severely abused as children, we grow up into adults that have very little reserves of unconditional love for ourselves. As we develop into our own spiritual parent, it will be up to us to grow as much unconditional love reserves as possible, to help restore the depletion of love that this abuse has created in our heart.

As we regain the memory of our ability to personally heal and clear ourselves to be freed from such mechanisms of suffering, we will be able to clearly perceive the root cause of our suffering. At the core level, immense suffering always exists within the disconnection and/or interference between our body and our connection to our own spiritual energetic bodies and their source light.

Our body will start to remember that which was previously hidden in order to surface these memories for emotional processing and rebalancing, in order to clear out the trauma memories and pain blockages from these assorted timelines. If we comprehend this fact, then we can take control over our consciousness energies and choose to work with them, not allowing ourselves to be manipulated by our blind spots because we have no context.

Some of us grew up with parents or caregivers who had the best of intentions and generally they did their best they could to raise us but because they too had a wounded inner child they raised us in environments where their own wounding got in the way of loving who we were while we were growing up.

Our inner child is the echo of the child we once were, playful, creative, loving and joyful but has been pushed down and forgotten because of negative childhood experiences we may have had.

Notice how it feels inside of you when you say the words “ I Love You” to yourself, we may find it easier to tell others we love them yet, how often do we take time through the day to close our eyes and say these loving words to our heart. “I love you you matter.”

When we say these words to ourself we call forth our true essence, the part of us that has no concept of negative self-talk or lack of self-love, the part of us that is whole and complete, the pure love that lives inside us the bright light that shines behind the persona we present to the world. Our true essence so beautiful, tender, vulnerable and loving.

To grow into happy healthy adults we needed to feel emotional connection to our mother and father or caregiver, we needed to feel loved and valued we needed to feel special to be accepted for who we were, our feelings needed to be respected and validated and most importantly we needed to feel safe physically and emotionally. We needed to feel secure and protected and when these needs went unmet we began to believe it was our fault and that we were flawed and not worthy of love, we abandoned our true nature hoping to get the love and the acceptance from our parents and caregivers.

Over time we developed unhealthy behaviours to avoid the feelings of shame and low self-worth that were created by the wounds of physical and emotional abandonment, neglect abuse and rejection and these unhealthy behaviours followed us into adulthood.

Because we didn’t witness healthy boundaries some of us became enablers letting partners friends and family treat us badly, some of us grew up as people pleasers longing for approval, some of us became needy and insecure, while others engage in self-harming behaviours have obsessions compulsions and addictions because or our need for love and approval did not get.

We may often feel empty spending our day seeking to find love and acceptance outside of ourselves in hope of filling the emptiness only to find out that this emptiness never seems to go away even with the right love partner, the right career and every material possession possible. We still feel hollow inside, this feeling of lack of not being enough is because we’ve separated and disconnected with our true essence and this constant need to fill is actually our yearning to reconnect with our inner child, our true self.

Realising that the only love and approval that can fill us is the love and approval we give to ourselves, our wounded inner child desperately needs our love and comfort, we need to fill our hearts with loving words that our wounded child needed to hear while growing up. Saying these words will help heal the pain and make peace with the past.

These words will bring forth our inner child, our true essence that we often ignore and push away the part that gets left behind and abandoned while busy with demands and pursuits of daily living, these words will help us embrace and integrate with ourselves and others.

I don’t pretend to have all the answers, but piece by piece I’ve started putting myself back together. Researching, studying, growing, I found my own path combining spirituality and personal understanding. This is my truth and my understanding and I know it won’t be for everyone.

There is not one way of healing, every journey is different, but there is only one relationship in this lifetime that you can completely guarantee you have the power over and that is to not abandon yourself. When those feelings and triggers/anxieties arise comfort that little baby boy and let him know that you are here now you are in control and that you are not going anywhere. Say it out loud to yourself and you may break down crying but you need to reassure him/her your primal wound that you wont be going anywhere and that you unconditionally love him/her.

Know that understanding and healing comes from unknown places deep within . Enter the world again from scratch, with body and mind, start to realign by addressing your most basic needs and assessing what was missing or broken as a result of adoption.

Our Healing begins at our very core for adoptees and first we need to establish a connection and develop a trusting relationship with that baby/ our inner child. Without doing this there will be no initial trust and it has to be there first before we can even begin to think of trusting others.

Be still, be patient, be truthful to yourself. By facing the truth you must be prepared to lose everything to find out who you truly are and heal the broken connection to others.

Please note that this journey of healing WILL re-open old forgotten wounds and is not for the faint of heart.

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